lost relation

grown up with him, known him like i know myself,shared a childhood...grew up thinking.

always knew he was there somehow somewhere, even if that was not a physical reality

but i knew and i guess he did too.

after a lifetime worth of all this..and a lot more.one day i woke up and nothing was there.it's almost as if someone changed everything, took away everything..was it the grwoing connection which played havoc, was it the circumstances, people, i will never really find out ever.

i see him even now, but he is too far away for me and i am too far away for him. he is committed to being the man he wants to be, and i am praying that he becomes that.Does everything that he has ever wished for.

that is the only connection which is left, the rest is history.

even if i want i cant change things and even if he wants he can't change things.

what tugs even now is the fact that i can see everything in his eyes still...but too blurred.