someone needs to put a leash on all thats going on...
where to go..

i need to
re-collect
re-compose
re-member
re-write
a lot of things that have been going on and im not saying them..to anyone

adrenaline rush and 3 days

Saturday: very garmi. i land in school...and the TCs guy is sitting there..uhhh what could he want??OUR VISASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS are here!big fat white envelope:)adrenaline rush!
Saturday night:1 am. yusra calls: i can't make it tomorrow here are the gazillio no for the hut at gadani pls get in touch and go tomorrow..
ughh!!!
Sunday morning: beachhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......wind. great food. not a lot of people but still..one nig bus stuffed with people.
great tide:crazy people:retarded pictures and videos(camera phone)
Sunday evening: jor jor tired!played crazy antakshri with the final years on our way back..adrenaline rush!
Monday morning:5 am: shit!why do i have to go to lahore...itni subha subha!
8 o' clock flight, hmmm air blue flight filled with men..weird men.and ofcourse not a single goodlooking one to give a kick start to the day;)
monday afternoon: meeting at max's house, met this guy called tayyab..he was a mad man..does all this trecking, hiking, rock climbing etc etc..went to jammin java..with AC constantly dripping water on me!jeee thanks!
so this guy tayyab is showing us pictures and videos of his excursions..WOW!!!ours will be in thandinai...too bad i can't go.although i will defo do something during the course of this year.
adrenaline rush!
people with me took me to their LUMS campus..ivy ridden beautiful brick facade LUMS!wow.
i felt like an intruder though..i guess people who come to my college feel the same way.anyway.
anyway...these three days were crazy hyper..and if nothing else atleast the made me write again

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself But if your love and must needs have desires, Let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook That sings its melody to the night. To know the pain of too much tenderness. To be wounded by your own understanding of love; And to bleed willingly and joyfully. To wake at dawn with a winged heart And give thanks for another day of loving; To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy; To return home at eventide with gratitude; And then to sleep with a prayer For the beloved in your heart And a song of praise upon your lips.

ATTENTION SEEKING ME???

its a dogssss life:)

just in a crazy putting up falto pics and images mode.

rickshaw plea in Lahore

FAN at NCA

If you were better looking, You'd be better paid,

Better liked. Happier.

read this somewhere today..depressing!

do i have the heart to say the rest...
no i am heart broken
everything went to a waste, i trusted someone who let us down totally.

Bombay dreams(wake up call)

The ultimate story of going to India is unfolding before my eyes day by day. And how am I reacting. BY PULLING MY HAIR OUT!!!!Ufffff height of frustration shall change!
When the whole planning started, I remember being in school and talking to a certain teacher and an alumni friend (yeh yeh India jana hai…han han kya mushkil haii bas jao...aisa karo foran chalay jao match bhi dekh laina…this was the teacher talking…matlab hellow…where are u thinking from but yeh thanks for the enthusiasm)
The whole plan started back in march (end of march)we decided to plan an alumni trip to India, of course it involved crazy planning and a certain one that I know decided to get all the details, step two! We land in our teachers studio…he was going to help us out with visas, itinerary etc. everything got decided, air fare hotels…search here search there.
OKKKKK day for interested people to show up: 13 PEOPLE SHOW UP!!!!Out of 52472654(ok exaggerating) alumni only 13! Matlab HUD hai!
Fine so we all sat together at the machar ridden cafeteria and filled visa forms(all 4)thank God for almost no light there we eventually decided to go sit in the board room.
FILL YOUR FORMS WITH PENCIL YOU WILL MAKE MISTAKES!!!oh boyyy..we made such blunders that its not even funny(I mean how difficult can it be to fill out the visa forms..i mean how???han han han)well I guess a lot!
But eventually it got done!i became all organized got brown A4 envelopes for everyone wrote down all the stuff that each person had given and got their email addies, cell no and to be on the safe side home no.s too.

Heyyy cool this stuff is happening…ok ok hurry day after tomorrow the visas have to be sent!
Tomorrow: beta…I think you can’t send your visas because if you want to go on the 23rd April your visas will not come in time(bas cancel kardo…so all the initial enthusiasm went to the dogs)
Sir we will manage it, I will call everyone lets delay it by a week.
Ok guys visa problem…will have to send it on a day the embassy guy tells us.
So I call up Aqueel sahib(oh did I mention that in the middle of all this chaos, our school refused to sign a letter for us) so he says is everything ready..let me find out
Day next
Akeek sahib did you find out..umm sorry beta I forgot
Akeel sahib we don’t have time…latest we cann go on the 29th and that’s like a week away..if our visas don’t go in the next tqwo days we wont be able to go
Ok beta let me find out.just text me and remind me.
Days4 akeel sahib…(I saw him in school so I rannnnn)hann han beta…bas abhi phone karta hon main ramesh ko
Hello ramesh..yeh etc etc etc etc..
Ok 4 to 5 working days..oh u mean by 3rd may..
Marium he is saying 3rd may..are u guys ok with that.
Well thankfully I had already told my group that this was prolly going to happn and they were ok with it)jee akeel sahib that’s fine
Ok ok ramesh I wil send the visas asap.
Ok beta get me the forms..
Yeh kya!!!these are business visas
Umm sir this is what I got..
Ohooooo you will have to fill these out again.
Ok you don’t have an invite and you don’t know anyone in Mumbai..ok fine here take these contacts, get another visa form , fill it and fax it to me and I will see if its ok and the rest of your group can fill forms accordingly.
Fax fax fax(well everything is ok..fix 23 and 13)ok sir
Ok you guys, you all need to come to college on Saturday at 1 and fill out the forms..there are some amendments(well I could hardly tell them that they had filled out the wrong visa forms)
Umm I can’t come at 1
Umm can I come at 145
Sorry have a meeting
I mean everyone had an excuse
So I went to one persons home on Saturday morning at 10 got her and two other people to fill out the forms got their passports(I ahd already taken out the 4 pics from the previous visa forms ) so these guys wouldn’t have to go thru the trouble of doing this.
Anyway..ran to school cause the rest of the people were going to how up
By the way did I mention that the no of people had gone to 9.(4 backed out because of delay)

ok so everyone came..
filled out forms, made many more mistakes.i went and photocopied all forms, everyone signed gave money for the trip and left..as I sat there in the board room..putting everyone spics on their forms and folding the 4 forms putting them in the visa section of the passport. It thought to myself..what the@$#@(*!!!!but anyway did it, because I knew that we had come along way and this should happen(another funny detail:this group had 8 girls and 1 guy)lucky hmm I don’t think so!
So later with the Alumni Mate I went to the initial teachers studio, because he was supposed to send our visas..we sat there for about 3 hrs. sorting stuff out making sure everything was ready..and that particular alumni mate kept scratching herself…my 6th sense told me she wpnt go!!!why??well firstly she hadn’t paid yet..and most imp she had npt filled out her forms and was doing it in front of me in the laziest possible manner..umm marium I will come and give my form to him tomorrow morning..dont worry I will do it
Tomorrow morning: 10:text Alumni mate:did you send the stuff
1230: he is only waiting for you to give him the form give it already
1235:hellow yar where the hell are you pls drop the form with him..
alumni mate: yeh yeh I just left office I am on my way.i have spoken to him and told him that I am coming
this dialogue kept happening till 2!!!and then my teacher called and said..beta she just called me and said she is not going!!!
Again I was just like ugh!!!*&(*$%$%#%#
So screw it!nahi jati to na jai..
Ok mission accomplished visas sent…now we shall prepare for the trip.
2 days later I get a call from the embassy (you don’t have an invite, you didn’t come to Islamabad yourself or app Karachi main bethi bethi chahti hain kay visa mil jai appko)and I started thinking.is there a limit to this bullshit ya nahi!app bhool jaon kay app 3rd ko ja sakti hain..
magar mr ramesh ..magar magar!!!!in vain!
Ok trouble in paradise again/I swear if I wasn’t crazy about shahrukh khan and rahul bose I wouldn’t have gone thru this..biggggggggggggg wink!
I have no idea if this post is making sense..i am just writing whatever has been happening to me in the past month…from present tense I have gone to past to future to present participle and however many tenses there are!

Ok now what!call up JJ school or art. No reply
Lets find out from Rizvi school of architecture.. two days passed no reply!
Ok so now it was 4th may!and no visa and no possibility.i cal;led up THE ONLY GUY IN THR GROUP! He said don’t worry I know someone I can get this done
Text: send me the passport nos of everyone
I immediately faxed him all of that.(yeh on the safe side I had a copy of that)
He called again don’t worry lets get the bookings done for 9th Monday and we are on for it
Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee everyone is excited..
Saturday..had a freelance work presentation, was in school working and waiting for TCS guy to get the package from isloo…till 6 there was no guy
So I called the only guy in the group and told him that we hadn’t received the visas, he called back in 10 saying..they will reach us on Monday, because they guy didn’t dispatch them in time!i mean can u imgine..everythign si going wrong!!!!!!!!!!GODDDDDDDDD what the helll!
Okkkk take a deep breath..oh by the way 2 more girls backed out so now we are 7 people and those two msg me 20 times a day”when will we get our money and passports back”I yar main kya dafa honay wali hon duniya say….what is wring with everyone bhaiiii
Ok so now today is Saturday and this morning I got a mail regarding our bookings for Tuesday 10th and return 17th Tuesday.beta no return flights from PIA! WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT can things go any wrong!!????
So since 9 in the morning I am sitting online finding out flight details(we were actually booked for a couple of days back but that booking got cancelled because visas were an issue) went to pia site.got 6 people booked on one PNR(with return tixs on waiting list)and then went on again to book the last person(ops no waiting list avaible for the last 1 person for return flight!!!)
Called up jammie(we have to do something) ok meyum don’t worry let me speak to K he will do something or my dad. So both of us started wrecking our brains over this …finally later in the evening Jammie called and said(my dads guy has gotten us all 7 on the confirmed waiting list) ok tahts not so bad now then is it!!???
Fine…at 9 I get a call from jammie: meyum I need everyones date of births(stupid requirement for bookings)
Fine so I called up everyone got their dob’s , one person left(THE GUY IN THE GROUP) I have been calling him since morning to tell him whats going on…but no reply.
funny part begins:(as if the rest was not funny!aik to tum bhi na meyum)
So totally frustrated I call up mobilink and they tell me” jee yeh no to blocked hai kal raat 11 bajay say.ya chori hua hai or kho gya hai” SHIT!!!!!! Now what….
Hey wait a min I have his home no: searched and searched in my documents found itttttttttttt!!yipeeeeeeeeeeeee
App ka matloba no arzi tor par band hai!aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh I am so pist I want to scream
So I call up 18 jee yeh no band hai..pls isko fix kar dain(imagine he will have his no fixed thanks to me)
“bibi yeh app ka complain no 245 hai kal sahi ho ga”
aye haiiii!
Oh oh ..i can call up mobilik again and find out his DOB
“hello this mobilink mera nam kashif hai may I help you miss”
jee who yeh jo no hai yeh farhan ahmed ka hai…pls can u tell me his DOB
“jee we cant break our rules and give out his details to you.”
Pleaseeee I will die, we have to go to India day after tomorrow and if I don’t get his no we wont go
“jee I understand magar main app ko yeh DOB nahi bata sakta”
“waisay bhi yeh no farhan ahmed kay nam pay nahi hai kisi or ahmed kay nam par hai” sorry I cant help you!
#$%#%$#^%$%$*
ok called up 18 again, maybe he has another landline..
nahi bibi koi or landline nahi hai..ka ejaz aa jain gay inka phone sahi karnay(well something is confirmed even if it’s the fact that farhans phone will get fixed!)
shit I don’t evcen know this guy where the hell do I call him..i just wrote him amail which he will prolly chk tomorrow morning
called up jammie to tell her this…she was laughing like maddddd
“bas tum dono shadi karlo..ab tumko sab pata hai farhan kay baray main..kal ja kay uski sabzi bhi lai ana”hahhahahhahahhahahahha. You should write a bog today about this
and im like #%#^%$^%$^%$&^$&
so now its 11 and I have spent the last 10 mins writing the story of life(Indian saga.as jammie puts it)
dammit its 4 pages long…
I know if you bothered reading it then prolly didnt get the heads or tails of it.
Now please all of you.pray that we get the bookings done and get our visas tomorrow. Go on Tuesday and come back on next Tuesday!
Please God help!
I have wasted blood and sweat over this. Please let It happen.
Lets see how the story unfolds eventually.

my baby:)

ok..your time for being creative starts now!!!

i want a room which overlooks the street, so i can see flickering lights on random sign borads. the constant zoooooooooooooom whooooooooosh of traffic..dimming low at night and then loud in the morning. The windows should be hugeeee and airy, as if taking in everythign within them.
well thats my way of being creative everyday. i can't judge or be creative on the scale of 9 to 5.
if i have a sense of design then thats in everything i do. it can't be a separate entity.
i went to the creativitea party (seminar) today, but i wont talk about it.