dancing like mad today in my own room when noone watched was exactly what i needed.
here's to everything that is upto us to make us happy:)

lost relation

grown up with him, known him like i know myself,shared a childhood...grew up thinking.

always knew he was there somehow somewhere, even if that was not a physical reality

but i knew and i guess he did too.

after a lifetime worth of all this..and a lot more.one day i woke up and nothing was there.it's almost as if someone changed everything, took away everything..was it the grwoing connection which played havoc, was it the circumstances, people, i will never really find out ever.

i see him even now, but he is too far away for me and i am too far away for him. he is committed to being the man he wants to be, and i am praying that he becomes that.Does everything that he has ever wished for.

that is the only connection which is left, the rest is history.

even if i want i cant change things and even if he wants he can't change things.

what tugs even now is the fact that i can see everything in his eyes still...but too blurred.

choices

mischeif or terror?

disillusioned or seeing right?

crackpot or joking around randomly?

focused or choosing to not look?

dancy or straight?

mad or logical?

tea or coffee?

kabab roll or mc chicken?

FRIENDS OR FAMILY?

tears or smile?

work or work more?

make someone happy or say the right thing?

be fair or biased?

children or parents?

write it or say it?

unlimited choices

there are few things in your life that are never tangible enough to express, to write to sing to scream out.

sometimes when your life takes an unexpected turn, or something happens that you dont really expect from someone..you get hurt. but in that moment you also loose a little bit of faith in things and that ends up in a big fat blow to everything that you believe in.
a loud knocking on your head and in your heart makes you want to scream out whats inside, but you dont because you know it will not be understood,yes logic would tell me i am being stupid by not saying it but at times there are things at stake of much higher cost..irreplacable and if they dont atleast you undesratnd their value

mumbai say aya mera dost!

INDIIIIAAAA is finally happening and
i am getting my time off
yipeeeeeeeeeeeee doodle dooooooooo
chopati jain gay bhail prui khain gay...
aray dus bahanay kar kay lagayy dil...
uff what not...everything will happen:)
will try to blog..umm err yes:)
meyum!

Susie: HEY, CALVIN! Are we near a slaughterhouse, or did you forget your deodorant again?!

Calvin: DROP DEAD, SUSIE! You're so ugly, I hear your mom puts a bag over your head before she kisses you goodnight!!

Calvin: It's shameless the way we flirt

???

i didnt know that life would bring me to this point, people coming in my life and my name joining with theirs, one day they will leave.
heck, i didnt even know that i was the one driving them away. past the glory of wonderful days of being young and relentless, past all the love admist the choas, past everything else there was my being which always seemed unresolved, unevolved yet i kept moving somewhre, in search of something i didnt even know about but eventually, life unfolded before my eyes and i was just able to figure one thing out. nothing lasts forever and theres just so much you can hold onto and the rest just keeps moving and then i leared how to let go. for good or for bad!
just something i wrote a while back

happy or right?

would rather be right or be happy?
a question that someone asked me and instantly i said" i want to be happy" now when i say i want to be happy i might do and want to do thigs that are not necesairly right but they are making me happy.
in this mind boggling state there are some other things are happening around me and i think to jmyself. are these people compromising on happiness because the feelin is not RIGHT or this is juts a way to get out of something and then blame it on "feeling" "guts""logic"
where are feelings logic and gut when you just want to be happy in doing something..why cant we get signs and indications then.

and the page just wont open!!!!