when you decide that you can be a ceratin way and not let things bother you.they really don't.

and she danced beautifully and cooked

and she danced beautifully, AAmir zaki played this music and i swayed to it. i have been wanting to blog for so many days but i either end up too busy too too lazy. it was the general whats life to blog then being inspired by people around me. Saturday class and how everytime class happens i know why i want to keep doing this and leaving school in Jan seems like an uncertain decision...the whole of saturday, awesome mausam, people the night...
THE NIGHTTTTTTTTT, being a shia we have very specific traditions rituals etc(although i wish one of the traditions included making Rangoli outside my house) but nah that is not happening. I cooked last night after coming back from the play..from 1230 am to 230 am..making puris firni and other stuff for something that was going to happen at fajr time later. Its called "Kundas" and there is a niaz. Anyway, so waking up again for fajr i was almost swaying left to right, prayed for myself and everyone, couldnt eat..went to sleep got up..
amma said the first thing i should have is the Niaz stuff so had self cooked sweetoverdosed food.
and now blogging, yapping, swaying, dozy..have a long day up ahead..lots to eat everywhere.hopefully there will be not so sweet things in other places.

request

i want it to rain, be cloudy and spend a free day with my book and pen on the beach. too much to ask for???

Jeevay Jeevay Pakistan!
be very proud of what you have everyone!

my lost relation is back..it's back in my life.allah ka shukar. i can't show that i care mostly because too much has happened in the past and i dont want people saying anything as long the person concerned is aware.

wake up and blog

it's 1:39 am and i got up to write all of this because it just entered my head, for the past couple of hours i felt lost, there was something churning in my head but nothing came out and it was pointed out that i was keeping something inside my head, perhaps i was who knows but it refuses to surface.scratch scratch nothing there.
it's so easy to break something just by saying what you really think about it, so if you hold back because you don't want to break it does it mean that you are being not so faithful or you are a loser because you can't face up to it or is it one of those things for which we say, "at times its better to stay quiet and save lives then talk"
So many times so many things mean so much to you that even the thought of them being removed from you is unbearable and you hold on..hold on tight.put your seat up straight and tighten that belt around you.

I discovered fight club today and i discovered that i did not understand what i was looking for. Did it all make sense to me or was asad right in saying that,"your mind wont change, you will remain the same. loud!".

Jagmagaatay Pakistan main Chamakta Karachi

august in karachi is beautiful, there is wind, hopes for some rain and more then anything else there is 14th aug coming up...there is Green all over. Huge flags and ting badges, you can do up your Pakistan anywhich way, enjoy the world around you go green and festive.I have been listening to all the national songs i could get my hands on and the feeling is more than wonderful. i was driving down the saddar electronic market yesterday and the entire place has been done uo with flags and tiny bulbs[ which looks really starnge in my illustration but its the idea that counts right;)]

all you people, if there is anything making you feel low then just take a look around you and you will feel wonderful, im so glad there are no small jhandis this time around, they use to just get abused after the 14th of August.

i went to get a badge for myself the other day and was appalled to see a "altaf hussain" bagde and there was the Flag of Pakistan right under his face....please please noooooooooo.

also the slogans that keep coming on the flag. i mean why can't we keep our Flag the way it is.

It's Greeen and White with a cresent and star. Thats it!!!!

anyway 3 more days to go, enjoy 14th August, have a good time enjoy the freedom and don't abuse it.cheers

since last night i have felt a void in me...something unreachable.When you want make things ok give a hug, make everything ok for someone they become the most unreachable, not because they want to but something in them pulls back wnating to be stubborn with feelings not letting anyone know how they feel, especially you. You, because you always manage to get under the skin

windy Karachi

Karachi is all wind and cloudy these days. roll down the window of your car(yeh take a break from the AC)your hair will fly all over the place whooosh whooosh. it's crazy but fun beyond imagination,it's a drug that elevates your mood.
School's great for that resaon alone..and just that.otherwise what i wouldnt do to not wake up for school everyday.
weather is karachi will remain brilliant, jammies shadi passed and the weather made it super amazing(to kya hua agar dances main we had to hold onto our shirts for life)and now with 14th august approaching hopefully it will remain this way ..but just from experience, weather on 14th August is horrible...too hot or maybe it's the crazy crowd at college making it unbearable.Well i guess that is taken care off for this year...
so everyone who is here in Karachi have a good time:)

i like you polka dotty template

changing template can just uplift your spirits. so much has happened in the past month...jammie got married and i danced ..danced like there is no tomorrow, went mad but nothing came out in the form of words prolly because i was just not inspired and today i just want to write and write and sing and dance:)i know i am mad but thats me.

i know i am in love when there is a smile on my lips and tear in my eye.

my double doze of madness that i can't be without ever

jammie is the " magical madcap" on the right and fadii is the "i cant ever be sane" and i am "magically insane" because of the two of them

i just came to an interseting conclusion last night"when people apologize for how they feel they just make things worse for a person. Whatever one oerson might feel, saying sorry for it just makes it all too obvious that they never felt anything or realized a certain thing.
its all too good.so you spend a lifetime in your eyes and you think that you know someone so so well yet they turn around and say they didnt. "umm where did that come from??"theres that bad bad pang but hey who can help that right.it's just there waiting to happen.
to think that i always thought that things were so good where as the story was completely different