i am listening and reading more into things these days.i remain quiet not because i have nothing to say but mostly because i want to absorb and make connections.

miracle

the unsaid unforseen happiness
the new attachment,
taking you off to newer heights
another one in the making,today
but you never anticipate it,
it just happens

dedicated to 26/26 maria

blog of answers?

The last couple of weeks have been a major change for me. My birthday passed by in total brilliance, visit from fadii kat jam and k and then dinner at nandos later. It’s all been there. My so called 28 gifts from fadii were a classic. That crazy day in electronics market, buying idiotic phones and then going and selling them back the same day because they sucked. Best friend’s dinner at Ban Thai was the perfect ending to a perfect post birthday day :). Asad left the same day and Nash has also gone to New York (haiiii!!The one place I so badly want to go to).

I have made a major decision for myself and it’s something which is long-term, I pray for it everyday and I hope that somewhere something will click. The situation I am faced with is totally otherwise and contradicts all my thoughts but there is something which is keeping me content in my decision. I have lost some friends, who were very important for me; it’s been for some random odd reason and my world shrinks even more! More then I could ever imagine. That’s the reality of life so far, my horoscope for today was the funniest “you have learned that being depressed about the past only delays your progress” very apt in my case, I just need to take it all in the stride.

There are prospects for a lot of things, I am quitting something that I have been doing for the past four years, it’s a big change and I am possibly not ready for it. I have to do this, at 28 when you are still not taken seriously you have got to put your foot down and make things happen for yourself. This brings me to another point, why is it that we acknowledge all of this yet when it comes to taking a decision for ourselves we start blaming the parents. Where there is a will, there is always a way, you want something bad enough you go for it. Stop making excuses for things, this is important. You can’t on one hand say that it’s very important and then refuse to take ownership for relationships. All relationships regardless of the fact that they are marriage or not, they are just as important. You give a lot in each and every minute that goes into a relationship and it deserves to be taken seriously from everyone who has anything to do with it.

The question remains, do you want something bad enough or not?? If you do then don’t make excuses for not doing anything about it. GO FOR IT!!!!! It’s all worth it.

this wednesday!!!