The Faith

stuck in a rut?

As a human race, we are always in that phase where past grievances and grudges hold us down. Things and relationships that are important, fly away, wither and die because sometimes our ego and sometimes our relationships with our loved ones come in the way. I keep thinking that my parents are stuck in that old rut where, the human relationship cycle keeps repeating itself. They too at one point were thinking the same thing. I don’t want to be in that situation with myself and with my kids, nor do I want to instill this school of thought in them. Can I help it though? Lots of things occur in our lives where we think that the worse has happened to us and someone has hurt us so so bad. The last thing we want is our best friends, siblings family anyone to have any association with them. It is happening in my family and it almost like a recap of things with the previous generation. Things are just going on and on.but heck, there is no perfect world where everything is smooooooth. The feeling of being torn, the extremities we set in our lives. Is this a result of having too many expectations? Is it an insecure domination? Are we just scared?or is this just my Libran nature speaking out loud?

it takes time...blogthought of the day

i have prolly been most out of it where blogging is concerned..just not able to put down a million and one things bouncing in my head..
i wanted to write a long post when my neice was born last month..just ended up putting alvias picture up. Another post related to the shadi delima/galore happening in family was much needed but it didnt materialise.I am not a resolution person but new years had me thinking of yet another year passing(amazing and horrible at the same time)and ofcourse a post was due.Majorchange came through with deciding to leave school and take time off..the uncertanity of future with no job and nothing concrete.
All this has led me into a major thinking mode..infact the entire last year for me has been a thinking sorting mode..not saying much,major relationship changes etc etc.
it takes time..is just about the perfect thing that i could say right now..infact i wrote it to a friend last night who i have not been in touch with a lot has come between us in the past year..i love her and i miss her, but it's just not possible to get back into things right away and even though we both have hurt each other it can't be fixed just like that...
i am trying to be patient, yet not letting anyone mess with me now, putting my foot down where i have to..
i am waiting,and now i will not compromise...even if it takes time