wait...wednesday wanderings

life lately is crazy, hectic, fun and madness magnified. Sans Indus, the safety it provided and the comfort of being in a space that is very known to me is gone. Earlier into this year, it was just anticipations. Going here and there, figuring out what to do, suddenly feeling alone dejected and very very upset. How will i do this?i shouldnt have quit school, is doing an exhibition even worth considering?the wait of not knowing and finding a place to be was drawing me into a strange place.
random thought,"i just want you to know who i am".
Cut to feb, i got a job!!!!i am now officially an art teacher to 20 some kids at Ilmesters Academy. Calling them kids is infact an understatement, they are tiny...youngest being 4 and max 8. I am "aunty marium" to most and "teacher" to some. it's perfect!!mashallah..this one wait is over. I teach them art, get them to design things. These kids are very creative, not very aware but superbly fun and would try anything,"where i need to hold them a little bit, know what i mean":).
Tomorrow is the first parent teacher meeting, the first in my life atleast. Today as all teachers got together to get a breifing for this meeting, i sat around listeing, nodding, giving two bits and doodling...yes i had a pink and orange pen on me;)
I have gotten the art studio(previously called art room" painted. Got the kids to make aluminum foil planets and they are hanging from the ceiling. It looks beautiful, suddenly there are 6 more soft borads all around school that i am expoected to fill up with work...hmmm.. and the work has to go back to kids home as well and fill up the class...hmmmm...
yes!!for a second i was harrasses..how the hell will i do all this?get room painted, put up work, make sure the kids do something new everyday..hmmmmwow!!
tough but very doable:)
yesterday i was looking at a freinds portfolio and there was tremendous amount of work she has done ever since we graduated. I realised that i hardly have anything, mostly it's been teaching for the past 4 years and the odd time i did get i designed clothes.
SOOOOOOO that is going to be my portfolio, i will feel proud because i have taught some amazing oldies and now kiddos and to top it all i get to make clothes for people i love!!!
well that lobve shall be shared now since along with working i am putting an exhibit up first week of May inshallah.
in the midst of all this, i started working as an art director..ummm hmmmmmmm..yes never thought i could do that!!it was total accident. Umar Anwar aka very good friend ,amazing director (claim to fame: strings mera bichra yar) and now boss:) i somehow landed there and just recent;y did the first project which was an ad for samsung...very scray experinece i must say and the only thing that kept me going was the fact that i know Umar and was comfortable with him. This was total first time for me, and i had umar showing me the ropes the whole while. Learnt a lot!!!
welll this is how crazy things ahve been, i just hope and pray that the wait has been worth it and it will be worth it for everything i have waited for:)
p.s update:fadi has a new job waiting for better, kat is going crazy with work waiting for swimming, jam will have baby jam...waiting cutely